Saturday, December 26, 2020

Believe?

 In movie after Christmas movie this time of year, a single theme over-rides all others:

        Believe.

Miracle on 34th Street. The Polar Express. Elf. Arthur Christmas. Even Netflix’s more recent The Christmas Chronicles focuses on the importance of belief. 

Usually it’s belief in Santa, and in the context of the story, if Santa doesn’t exist, Christmas itself faces an existential crisis. “Christmas, canceled” wasn’t invented by the war on Christmas crowd. Rankin-Bass went there first. 

The odd thing about all of this, of course, is that all this Santa-belief-sentimentality is aimed at a belief that most of us know is not factual in any literal sense. 

Of course other movies focus less on believing in in Santa and more in believing in Christmas itself. Of course, not Christmas in any religious sense, but in a secular version of the “peace on Earth, goodwill towards men” kind of generic feel-goodness. In the TV show Community, their holiday Claymation episodes sends the show’s community college characters on a quest to find the meaning of Christmas. It ends with Abed, the character whose delusion has placed them all in his claymation world, saying that, "The meaning of Christmas is the idea that Christmas has meaning. And it can mean whatever we want."

He may not be all wrong in a secular sense. 

What movies seldom do, if ever, is focus on belief in the event Christmas actually celebrates for Christians: the birth of Christ. 

How the Grinch Stole Christmas heads in the direction that Christmas is more than Santa. It contradicts the narrative that if Santa fails in his mission, Christmas is canceled; it shows us a Christmas stolen in the material sense that lives on because of the holiday spirit of the Whos. In the end the Grinch famously realizes that “Maybe Christmas… doesn’t come from a store./Maybe Christmas, perhaps, means just a little bit more.” 

Dr. Seuss doesn’t say what it does mean, but hints that it means more than food, presents and decorations. At the very least, it’s about continuing to sing, even if you’ve been burglarized. 

Only “A Charlie Brown Christmas”, with Linus’s simple, heartful rendition of The Gospel of Luke Christmas story, tries to tell us (we are all Charlie Brown) “what Christmas is all about.” In 1999, my family went to a Peanuts 50th Anniversary Exhibit at The International Museum of Cartoon Art (it was then housed in Boca Raton, Florida). In one room, they had the Christmas special on a continuous loop. We went in the room and watched it from the beginning. At the end, one of the men who’d watched it with us had never seen it before, was offended by it. “I didn’t know it was going to get all religious!” he said, stalking out of the theater. 

But I love belief narratives. If they are done well, I always find them moving. The end of Elf, when James Caan finally sings, Santa’s sled soars, and the snow starts drifting down, gives me goosebumps. So does the scene in Miracle on 34th Street when the mail bags come in at the end. 

And the final pages of the original book of The Polar Express have a tendency to choke me up.

But this year, all of these movies made me feel differently. All of this “believe, throw logic and reason out the window” talk made me profoundly uncomfortable. Because this year is different…

This year we have flat-earthers.

This year we have holocaust deniers. 

And Covid deniers.

And anti-maskers.

And anti-vaccers.

And election-results deniers. 

And Q-Anon believers.

And people who claim school shootings are all hoaxes. 


Our national zeitgeist seems to be to believe whatever you want - facts be damned. Facts are just an opportunity to dig in and defend your beliefs even harder. Believe that Covid will go away on its own. Believe masks do no good. Believe that over 300,000 dead is a hoax. Or, alternately, believe that over 300,000 dead is a small price to pay to keep the economy going. 

My sentimental feeling about belief has suffered a bit this holiday season. I’m more apt to sympathize with Maureen O’Hara’s skeptical mother character in Miracle on 34th Street this year (though not with the staff psychologist - he’s just an idiot). 

The pure rationalists among us would suggest that perhaps it is time to put away beliefs in things we cannot see: Santa, Christmas Spirit, God… Blind belief is dangerous. 

This year, I see their point more than ever. 

But then there’s this: If you believe only what your senses tell you, you become a logical positivist, and then you don’t believe in anything you haven’t personally experienced. I haven’t been to Salt Lake City - so it doesn’t exist. The pictures might be hoax. It’s a quick trip from their to the moon landings being faked. 

Of course, add to that limitation the fact that we do not see the world as it is, but as we perceive it, and the logical positivist point of view becomes untenable. We have to trust that at least some of the reports of the world around us coming from other people are true, or our world will become very small indeed.  To be sane we have to trust that other people, other sources of information, can help us see reality better. To a very large extent, our view of the world depends on whose reports we trust. 

To the extent that I honestly seek after what is true and seek out others who are doing the same, I am part of what Parker J. Palmer calls The Community of Truth. Reality is communal. No one person can have a handle on it, despite the fact that large swaths of the population seem to think they have a monopoly on reality. 

We have stopped trusting the same sources, stopped trusting the same people in our country. On my worst days, I wonder how we can survive the parallel universes tugging our nation apart. We need a return to facts, a retreat from what Stephen Colbert’s original Comedy Central character called “truthiness.”

And yet, to believe in facts, even if those facts are 100% verifiably true, is not enough. 

In his book How to Argue with a Cat, Jay Heinrichs says that a belief is as good as a fact - at least to the person holding the belief. I don’t disagree. But beliefs do more than replace facts. Beliefs determine which facts we accept or reject. Who to trust, who to distrust. 

Beliefs can be based on facts, or at least on the best facts available, but they are not facts. We are being exposed to different facts about mask-wearing, and so we hold different beliefs. 

The idea that human life has value and meaning is a belief that cannot be proved. In the end, science may prove many facts about human beings. It may even prove that believing in the value and meaning of human life is good for human mental health and observable happiness. But that is not the same as proving value and meaning. It sometimes seems to me that science prove much beyond the idea that we are all large-brained, tool-using, metaphor-and-narrative-making animals who delude themselves into thinking they have free-will until the day we die. We are moist robots. 

But as the writer Jaron Linear has suggested, many people hang on to belief in God as a way to hang on to a belief in people. We have almost obliterated the idea of a human being. 

In Terry Pratchet’s The Hogfather, the character Death talks about why believing in imaginary figures like Hogfather (the book’s equivalent of Santa) is necessary: believing in our holiday figures is practice for believing in other lies necessary for human existence and survival, things like JUSTICE. MERCY. DUTY. THAT SORT OF THING.” (Death speaks in all caps.) He goes on to say that if you grind the universe down to finest powder, you will not find even the tiniest bit of mercy or justice. They do not exist in any ordinary sense. 

In the end, none of the abstractions we live be even the abstract ideal of pursuing the truth, can be proven. If a random universe spit us up by accident, and we are destined for extinction either soon in some worldwide catastrophe or later as the universe runs out of steam expanding and everything goes to cold and silence, then why does it matter if we discover the truth? We will ultimately be gone, and the universe will not care one way or the other. Saying truth matters in the here and now, that believing in scientific truth will save us during a pandemic, returns us to the faith in the value of human life. That value of human life cannot be proved the way you can prove masks work to save human lives. 

So to get through life, to even find it worth living, we must believe at the very least in some kind of abstract values. Whether those values evolved and are no more than an accident of our evolution, or whether values are inherent in the very fabric of the existence itself has always been up for debate. Also up for debate, apparently, is what those values should be - what we should believe given the facts that come at us. 

So I guess, in the end, belief matters. Everyone believes something - even if it’s just a belief that beliefs don’t matter. The trick is to be wise about our beliefs. I believe in a healthy skepticism, too. But that is the other half of the coin - chipping away at destructive beliefs. 

 Some beliefs lead to hatred, division, destructive conflict, suffering and death. There is no denying that. There is no belief system, including science, that does not have blood its hands. 

But some beliefs - like believing in the sacredness of human life, believing in love, in peace, hope, and the golden rule - lead to, well, life, love, peace, hope, and good will towards men. 

Perhaps those are the real messages of belief that still give me goosebumps, even when watching sacred silliness like Elf. 

Merry Christmas (it’s still Christmastide!) and Happy Holidays. 

Discover good things to believe in. 


 
















Tuesday, November 3, 2020

Emergency Kit


 "Emergency Kit"

David Lee Finkle

People who survived the sinking ship

Long enough to get on a lifeboat

Are sometimes found dead on that lifeboat. 

To be dead in a lifeboat 

Means to be dead 

In the place that should have saved your life. 

Water, rations, rescue flairs,

All sit within arms’ reach

Unused

By arms that didn’t reach

Across the small distance,

Take them up. 

Use them. 

Live.


I am that non-survivor sometimes. 

I sit, dead inside,

With all the supplies I need to live 

Sitting at arms reach. 

But these supplies are 

Thoughts

Ideas 

Wisdom

That if I only took them out 

And used them

Would bring me back to life. 


The first supply: perspective.

It doesn’t sound comforting

But knowing that the world 

Has always been a wretched place 

Puts things in perspective a bit. 

None of this is new. 

If I think back on those in the past

Dealing with the world then

It is the ones who 

Either quietly or boldly 

Went about changing the world for the better

Who count.

Some never lived to see their designated 

Promised Land,

Even if they went to the mountain. 

What matters is that they kept walking 

Towards the Promised Land. 

Second supply: Wisdom.

I help create the world. 

All I can do is change

My little corner

And hope those changes ripple outward

For the good.

The key to the good life

Isn’t having good things happen to you

But making good things happen.

We have a wealth of knowledge

From all the faiths of the world

And Philosophies throughout time

From science and art and all realms of thought

To sift and to reflect and determine what is

The Good. 


Third supply: Choice.

Between what happens 

And what I do

I always have a choice

Not about how I feel 

But about what I do.

I always have a choice. 

Some say choice is an illusion. 

If so, it’s a convincing one.

Perhaps believing you have choice -

Like some kind of real magical thinking - 

Makes it so.


I have my attention. 

I’ve read that your life 

Consists of what you pay attention to. 

I can change what I am paying attention to

Sometimes to escape what is happening

And sometimes to look at it through a new lens. 

My emergency kit has many lenses 

That I can wear over my mind

To bring out different aspects 

Of the world around me.

People who see the world 

Through just One Lens 

Are what create most of the problems

In the first place.  


I have thoughts. 

I have the ability to think. 

To be skeptical 

Not just about the Other

But about my own certainties 

My own prejudices 

My own knee-jerk reactions

My self-righteous anger. 


I have in my Emergency Kit

As well invisible threads 

Binding me to all those whose 

Lives have drifted close to mine. 

Sometimes they guide me across turbulent seas.

Sometimes I guided them. 

Sometimes we collided. 

But these threads remind me 

That I am not alone. 

We 

Are not alone. 


And so as I feel the darkness threatening 

To sink me

I open my kit and shoot up a flair

To see if there is anyone else 

Out there

With an emergency kit of their own 

We could share.



Thursday, July 30, 2020

How To Join a Cult From the Comfort of Your Own Home


All you have to do 
Is pick a leader (or leaders) 
From the comfort of your couch or recliner.
Have a cold drink on hand. 
Maybe Kool-Aid.
Settle in, take a sip. 

Find someone on a screen 
Who shouts a lot.
About fear. 
About anger. 
Watch (or listen) to them
All the time. 
Believe every single thing they tell you. 

Be sure it’s someone 
Who will confirm your worst suspicions
About the world
And all the people in it that you hate,
Who are, you will discover, 
All the people who aren’t like you.
The Other.

Never question your leader.
Never doubt. 
Submerge yourself in a pool of cool
Certainty. 
Trust your leader,
But doubt everyone else in the world.
Doubt them. Distrust them.
They are Other.
Never ask for evidence. 
Let your new-found god create the world for you,
Tell you how things really are.

Once you've firmly planted your butt
In your recliner and in your beliefs
Your mind cemented in the rightness of your cause,
Find other like minds - 
They are only a click away - 
Who will agree with everything you say.
You can live in a beautiful, 
Algorithmic bubble
Where voices bounce back from the outer edge,
Echoing your own certainties back to your waiting ears.
They reassure you that you are right
And everyone outside this bubble 
Is not only wrong, but evil.
That’s important.
Everyone else is part of a cult.
The Others are either sheep
Being led to the slaughter
Or they are the cult leaders: 
Satanic, evil, malicious, 
Sacrificing children beneath 
Pizza parlors and summoning
The powers of darkness 
To enslave the world
And make them wear masks.
They question these truths that 
You hold to be self-evident.
The Others ask for evidence. 
They ask for proof. 
Who needs proof when you have
Truth? With a capital T.

They will try to use logic. 
Shout them down. 
There is no reasoning
With reasonable people.
You’re not part of a cult. 
Everyone else is. 

Wrap yourself in your ideas
So tightly that they constrict blood flow 
To the brain.
You’ll discover that everything - 
Even evidence to the contrary - 
Is proof that you are right. 

You can be sure you are thinking for yourself
Because your leader tells you you are.
Once you are absolutely,
Positively positive, 
Deep in your soul, 
To the souls of your feet, 
That you hold the truth in your hands, 
Drinking the Kool-Aid is a moot point. 
You’ve been drinking it all along, 
Certain that it was wine,
And that this poem doesn’t apply to you.


Monday, July 20, 2020

Motives

I teach a fiction writing class for kids
And we create stories together.
There is usually a villain
Because one of the rudiments
Of story telling is conflict:
Protagonist and Antagonist
Locked in battle somehow.
We invent a villain,
Their eyebrows, their smile,
Their sense of style
(Anything from Snidely Wiplash
To fashion plate to forest ranger),
Their gait and their voice
And their car of choice
The food they eat
And the kind of seat
They sit in.
But it always come down to a question:
"Why are they doing this?"
(This being the robbery, kidnapping, murder,
Sacrifice of small children to a monster,
Or gathering a secret magical object
Into their possession through
Unscrupulous means.)
We used to debate it a lot.
What did our villain want?
On my latest adventure into fiction
I finally decided to come up with a
Quick Reference Guide to Villainous Motives.
But what I thought would stretch on for pages
Was really quite short:
Money/Greed/Selfishness
Power
Revenge
Competition
Prejudice
Misguided idealism/Thinking they’re working for the greater good
Insanity
All of the above.
I was surprised by the brevity of villainy.
Now I wonder about making a
Quick Reference Guide to Goodness.
But I suspect it would not be quick.
I think about what motivates
The good in the world,
And there are so many
Great impulses that lead to great action,
That the list would have no end.

Saturday, March 21, 2020

Frog Encounter (during the Corona Virus Crisis of 2020)

Took a walk tonight. 
Met a high-jumping toad. 
I tried to coax him 
out of the road 
to save him from being run over, 
and he leapt onto my leg. 
I got him off, 
but now I have to worry about warts, too... 
No, he did not have a top hat and cane, 
and he didn't sing "Ragtime Gal".

Thursday, February 20, 2020

The Illusion of Movie Solutions

In movies, it seems,
The fate of everything
Rests on a handful of brave characters
Or on one character
Who is uniquely placed
Close to the action
Who is uniquely endowed
With the ideal skill-set
The holder of unique knowledge
About how one
Object
Person
Device
Weapon
Is the key to stopping evil and saving us all
And also the holder of unique knowledge
Of how this key may be destroyed
By being dropped in a volcano
Or thrown from a great height
Or carefully un-wired and defused
Or targeted with a photon torpedo

And they succeed
Everything seems to be okay

But it seems we don't live in those stories.
There is not a single
Object
Person
Device
Weapon
We can destroy to make everything right
Because the problems are diffused
Throughout all of us
Entangled and complex
And hard to sort out much less
Drop or throw or defuse or target

And the people closest to the problems
Seem least likely to do anything about them.
And the rest of us or forced to sit and watch

So perhaps the take away
From movies and stories of heroism
Isn't proximity
Or the ability to find that simple solution
That wraps up the plot
In a little over two hours
(Or, if the studio is indulgent, a little under three)
Perhaps the take way
Is to note that in the end
What makes all those heroes
Heroic is not their proximity
Or unique skill or ability to find
The key and destroy it

Perhaps the most important thing heroes do
Is struggle through doubt and despair
Wrestling with their own inner demons
Defeating the enemy within
Before they fight the enemy without
Perhaps the difference between
The hero and the villain
Is a willingness to wrestle with your inner demons
Or indulge them

Perhaps the secret
Isn't finding the
Object
Person
Device
Weapon
And destroying it

Perhaps the secret isn't
To destroy the evil outside us
But first to destroy the evil inside us
And grow the good

Perhaps the secret is for each of us
To be as sure as we can
That we're on the right side
And to find what we
Are uniquely called to do